My relationship with food has never been a bad one but it's never been an outstanding one either.
I have memories of Deb potato in a can, my Mums corn beef with white sauce and eating a whole bag of Wagon Wheels until I made myself sick, and that wouldn't be the last time either.
I was always naturally thin presumably blessed with a high metabolism, so I ate whatever I wanted without any repurcussions that I could tell.
I had a general commonsense approach to food and in my early twenties I switched to a vegetarian diet, although I didn't have a whole lot of knowledge about being a healthy vego.
It wasn't until I fell pregnant that I really started to pay attention to my eating habits.
I was always pretty good with my veggies and the other food groups but my sweet tooth was full tilt.
After my second baby I began to notice weight gain and hormonal craziness.
I was plagued with a fanging sweet tooth, a case of PCOS and an increasing waist line.
Fast forward to today and I'm the heaviest I've ever been, 18 months post partum and suffering from a range of PCOS related symptoms.
My relationship with food has turned into a repeat binge session and an emotional roller coaster that I'm ready to get off of.
Ive come to see food as an emotional life line instead of a fuel source for my body and a pleasure for my senses.
Ive forgotten to "Love what I eat and Eat what I love"
Ive forgotten to listen to my bodies wisdom and connect with the life force of the foods that I eat.
And so from today I commit to eating from a space of love, healing and awareness.
I commit to connecting with my food and being mindful at each meal.
But most importantly I commit to embracing a healthy relationship with the food I eat knowing I am ingesting the living essence of nature.
Id love to share this journey with you because putting it out there is being vulnerable, brave and honest with myself and it's a form of accountability, to stick to my guns and embrace this change with all my heart.
I'd love to invite you to share your food journey with me by asking yourself these questions;
"What is your current relationship with food?"
"What do you want your relationship with food to look like?"
"What steps can you take to create your ideal food relationship!"
Although im not a qualified nutritionist I've done an immense amount of my own research and intend to follow my intuition when it comes to what is healthy for my body and energy systems.
I encourage you to do the same.
In the coming weeks I will share some resources, books and recipes that I love and I look forward to sharing my food journey with you :-)